resurgence

This post is cause of a very specific reason . .one of my friends has . .named my blog deadspirit from free spirit , i believe the obvious reason being the inactivity . .



I wont make any excuses here , guess I was plain lazy not to pen down the thots that inhabit my mind , even though they stay for a while ..



There is so much that i need to write about , that i really dont know where to start ..



first things first , abhinav bindra made us proud , and at the same time made me think why do we , being only the second in terms of number of people , have to celebrate the lone gold.. Is it facilities , i believe it is more of attitude .. . cause you can run on the road , if u dont have track fields and still practice .. .when i say attitude , it is not a individual thing but something the whole country believes in , atleast 99% , my parents never told me, be a sportsman , they ofcourse mentioned a engineer or a doctor a billion times if not more , and it is not thier fault. They know it won;t be easy for have a career in sports ,one mahinder singh dhoni for the whole of jharkhand is not practical .. some do make it . .but the numbers are too few for people to beleive in reasonable bets . .

This post was started a few days back but was lying in the draft mode ,hence the mention of the gold , more important things came up after that .. Saw the plight of Bihar once again in the news over and over again , floods again . .and this time much worse than before . .Don't know who to blame but it hurts to know that we are touted as one of the most growing economies in the world and we dont have the basic infrastructure to take care of such natural disasters.. Guess this should have been the foundation we shoudl have started with , sending the satellites to moon could have waited ..I hate cribbing about my country cause anywhere in the world you could be, but thats one place you will really belong .. and i want to get back some day , to a life I wanted .
The odds seems to be getting against it , with every passing day. It is not that I have started having issues with India's infrastructure or politics or even pollution over night , i really do not care about any of this , cause having spent 28 years has equipped me to handle all this pretty well and 2-3 years outside cant change it .. What I am not comfortable with is the intolerance level thats growing day by day in the country . .we were making progress .. . the caste system was abolished but at the same time the religious differences grew , the moment we started getting a handle on that .. we are facing a new monster .. REGIONALISM .. and being a bihari or a jharkhandi , it is more troublesome . .we will not find the kind of jobs we need in bihar/jharkhand and every other place in India has a problem with us . .not fair. .i mean noone gets a job cause he is bihari , he gets one cause he /she proved himself on a stage that was open to everyone .. Actually it is tougher to compete , when you are not on your home ground and we almost always have to do that .. This is one thing that makes me think twice .. on why i want to get back . .I dont have the liberty to live and work in everyplace i might want .. and it is my country while i can .. I dont have any restrictions here nor am I discriminated against . .maybe some people are but I personally havent been to this point .. Even if people dont like me , they wont threaten me to go back , probably show it by a facial gesture , so what would you choose. .
Not that I have given up hopes on getting back ,i t is very much on the agenda .. just that , the process gets delayed with every single thing that creates doubts in your mind ..
Enuf for today . .will get back soon