changes ..

Life has been changing ..slowly but surely , one step at a time .. the steps are so small that you dont realise the difference immediately but u do when you stop for a while and look back at the distance you covered ..like i have mentioned before , change happens whether you want it or not , whether you like it ..or ignore it .. you might not realise it everyday you see urself in the mirror but u do realise it when ur picture from a year back .. when u see new life coming in the family , my brother had a daughter and i could almost see back the time when we were all kids .. its dificult to fathom , we have moved so far , literally and figuratively .. far from the land we were born , far from the self we recognised as our own , far even from the people we care about .. and the crazy thing distance does , as it increases the images become fainter and fainter when u finally reach a point ,where you are no longer able to see anything. .not even a faint dot .. Its a scary thot , to keep losing sight ... days are going by as if there is no brake on . .just flowing , you dont even get to realise the importance of today in this rather mechanical busy life .. .the flow somehow only slowing for a weekend to some extent . Sometimes I wonder if this is all I want , or if i want something else . .i cant point out . There is no problem i can see in life , we are doing good ..we are happy .. still is life complete if there are no issues in it . .or do you need something else .. .i have somehow felt a lot of people around feel the same way , but nooone accepts it .. people have created a false sense of happiness and well being .. sometimes i debate if it is cause we are not in india .. but i guess , it wasnt much different when we were .. .it was just that u r more involved in small things there to give this a thot , and this place somehow gives you a lot of time .