Some quotes stay with you for life. .some on a good note and some on a very bad one .. when I hear of this one .. "from any where any time or read it on the signature or on some random musings , anywhere on the internet .. it gives me a creepy feeling every single time .. its like it gets deep within my skin and shakes it from inside .. this is something a friend of mine used to have on her cupboard wall .when she was alive .. and we never figured out what killed her , but she was just gone , one fine day .. without any notice . All of 18 yrs .. that's it , doctors' said it was some brain fever ,but i had met her a day earlier and she wasn't sick , even if she was she didn't look it .. not even a bit. That was the tough part , the unexpected , i have never been able to see her as anything but looking healthy and glowing and have thot of her everytime since that horrendous day .. on one account or the other ..wondering if there was something someone could have done , it just looked like a one sided fight ...there was no resistance , she just went away ..
i dont know why i got here today , i never talk to anyone but myself abot this most of the time and for reason today was different ... I have always been enamoured by the complexity of life and what happens next .. I cant believe , eveything just ends one day ,it has to go somewhere , but guess its something very vague , science doesnt know and unless it does , we dont have proof ..but i still strongly feel that there is something beyond all of this . .which we are not aware of .. or maybe it is just wishful thinking to hold on to people we have all lost along the way ...
and i wont say only people , I would say this holds for all close associations . .when my dog was dying , I had a feeling it knew , it was time for him to go ..every single thing he did that day was strange .. something he never would.. I mean he always liked being inside the house . .but on that particular day, he just wasnt coming in . .just trying to be out of the house ..and ofcourse , being very gentle , afar cry from his ferocious self .. we all knew something was terribly wrong .a.nd he has stayed with me and i guess .. everyone in the famliy .. .it must be atleast 10 yrs since this .. or maybe more , but everytime i go home , i atleast look at the place he used to be all the time , almost as if he would still be there . ..just for a instant second ..and then life moves on ..
its a sad thing to think about in the morning , but i guess , u cant help it . .maybe it was a dream that trigeered this thot process .. or something else . . .but this is all i cud think of today . .
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
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