I guess the only logical reason is cause u cant sleep , for whatso ever reason in the world ..and not sleeping makes u cranky and ofcourse much more critical of the world around..including urself...
Anyways , as I already mentioned , I cant seem to sleeep today, however hard i have tried and i tried getting into more useful things than blogging , like studying - didnt work for more than 5 min ... even tried watching TV and i used to think things cannot get worse than Indian television and serials , but wait till u watch american television ...there is always someone advertising something fatfree or low calories or some crap weight loss program ... the whole nation is obsessed with weight , cause they dont have much else to worry about ..i mean really , i just cant feel people thinking over here , which i know is a misconception , u cant have the biggest economy in the world without a few sensible people ...and i am amazed as how few and far between u find them ... Anyways, its time for me to say something good about this place , i mean i have been cribbing for so long that i almost hate myself for it now ... The best thing abot this country is that it is predictable , and its the worst thing as welll ..I mean every single place in the US Is the same ...it wud have its walmart , and target and staples and home depot ...so it hardly matters where u r ... i mean the roads are teh same ,the streets are named the same .. i mean talk about not having enuf names , i just think these guys dont ..
Now getting down to more personal levels ,life seems to be settled in the US of A , Newport ( thats the place where I stay) seems to be a miniature version of Asia ... you see either Indians or chinki;s . I cant judge if they are chinese or japanese ..or koreans ...chinki conveys the message right .... so u are in US but dont get the feeling , cause there are no genuine americans around ...at all ... it seems like this place is almost captured by the desis and the chinks .... and beleive me ..New jersey is not the place if you want to see anything thats american ..not that I mind ..just cant figure out why we are here or anywhere else , i mean i cud life as comfortably back in india ...but the time for such debates in gone long by .. I guess not working and sitting at home is not agreeing with me ...
woke up from a strange dream yesterday , was in a strange apmt and the person was not strange , but just cudnt place him when i woke up .,...and i dont remember anything else to give me a reason to mention this here ....got my first credit card in the US , have yet to buy something on my own card but i guess, it does make life easy and u more confident of venturing out on ur own ...
I called up a lot of people today who i generally wudnt ..but i guess this is what america does to u ..it instills a certain amount of loneliness that is dificult to understand and get rid of .. it makes u disown u r country of birth and stops u from being a american leaving u somewhere in between ... and every single person i see on the road . seems to have this loneliness in thier eyes, most wudnt even accept it ..they want to stay here and think this is the best plac ein the universse but it is still definately there somewhere ....it makes u hate what ur country lacks and it makes u want to go back ... in a nutshell , it makes u confused and not sure of what u want in life ...........
enuf ...whatelse is good in life, well there is a river right next to the apmtmnt i stay in and across the river , u can see the financial hub of this world, new york city which is enuf to give u a high sometime .... and that is definately nice, when u stay on the 21st floor..look at the river and the city across it ...it has a tendency to make u more philosophical ...and thats what i m getting into .and as everyone who knows me wud swear by , this is the time to quit ..and whats what i wud do..it almost 6 and time i got some sleep ... now this again is psychological ....getting some sleep is required ........
will l get back sooner than u wud believe ....
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Good post.
Thank you
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